Cancer

It's been almost four weeks since my mom passed away from cancer.  This has been very hard for me I lived with my mom and have been taking care of her.  Her wish was to do in home hospice.  I guess when this happened I was thinking I would get more help.  At this point my mom was very weak hospice was great getting her a hospital bed like within 24 hrs anything she needed, but I only had a nurse once a day for about one hour.  They would ask "Do you have any questions"? I mean your mom is dying your mind is all over the place do you think I can think of any questions? She was on Morphine which I had to learn to give her and towards the end is when this really hurt.  I'm trying to reach out to anyone who has or is going through this I beg you spend whatever time you can talking crying, hugging.  I have so much regrets for not talking more to my mom she always seemed more into playing on her tablet, and vaping yes in away she was still smoking, and I guess I thought she will get through this.  At times I struggle since I still live in the same apartment, and start a new job soon.  I think this is all hitting me at once that she's gone.  I know I will see her again one day in heaven, and I know right now she's probably a younger version of herself with no more pain, and just of joy and happiness. What I'm hoping is someone can learn from my mistakes in this make better choices.  Towards the end it was so hard. I had to help my mom to the bathroom, change her bedding, to be honest I was happy to do so. So what is it like towards the end? I don't wish this on anyone and I was lucky to have a friend from church who's a nurse that deals with terminal patients. He came at the last minute my mom hanging on in so much pain, we gave her the medicine, he was great she had wet through her clothes and sheets, so he cleaned her up she soon passed minutes after this.  Watching and knowing someone who brought you into this world is so hard your mind goes blank, but again I beg you don't run, don't turn from it.  Do the best you can to be there for them. I'm going to be honest with whoever reads this I feel guilt for not doing more. I know I did the best I could right now as I'm trying to type this I can't stop crying I don't understand it but all the feeling are coming up. I'm leaving you with a picture of my mom this was one day before she passed.  The man in the picture was a young boy my mom baby sat I was so happy he stopped with his new born daughter my mom loved babies.

Awake from a Dream(Reading)

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Awake from a Dream

So when I first started my business almost two years ago one of the main goals was to start making Christian theme shows. I wanted to try and hold off to home my skills as a film maker, and producer, but God put this series on my heart.  This is hard like anything in life, because not only am I trying to film, produce, but also writing the scripts as well.

At this point you're probably wondering why or are you sure God wants you to do this? Well I've been seeing way to much garbage on TV and the Internet and feel there is a time for a change.  If God gives you a vision and you do nothing to try and bring that vision to life you have to answer to him at the end, plus what a waste. If God is putting something whatever it is on your heart and is giving you vision for this then go for it! Yes it's going to be hard and yes it might take a lot longer then you thought, but in the end it will be worth it, or God would not have given you this. I grew up watching shows like "Highway to Heaven" with Michael Landon and later on shows like "Touched by an Angel" and in past couple years we've had the "Bible Series" .  There is way to much bad stuff like sex, drug use, violence, and so much more.  If you keep watching this stuff day after day you become numb, numb to violence, numb to healthy relationships, and worst you become numb to God.

"Awake from a Dream" is a story about a young man named Thomas who is out one day a notices a homeless person asleep on a bench his heart is changed and moved at that moment. Later that night in a dream Thomas is visited by what he believes is that same homeless person, but this is no homeless person it's Jesus and he gives Thomas the power of healing.  Is this some crazy dream or is it real? It's for you to watch and see for yourself. Are we really awake or are we dreaming our lives away? That too is up for you to figure out.